It's okay to be Passionate... and it's okay to let people know what youre Passionate about.

Its late at night both Mike and Ziggy are sleeping, but my eyes just wont close. So here I am sitting cross-legged on our brown leather couch listening to Bon Iver, while allowing my mind to reminisce about past moments. There are so many significant past moments just in the last 6 months of my life.
-I became the luckiest girl alive, and married the man that i would dream about for years. during the dating game i dated a wide variety of men, and at night i didnt dream about any of them. When i would have dreams about my wedding day there would be a featureless man so to speak, it was like him face was blurred.. but i could see the way his face moved.. and in my dream i could feel the love he felt for me. and i wanted that dream to come true. Mike is the smiling man i had in my dreams. but hes now my reality, and I am very blessed to have him. Whoever is reading this, and if you are by some chance feeling sad or lonely... I was there.. i was there a lot of the time. its kind of like you need to feel that lonely and sadness to appreciate the amazing feelings. And dont you DARE allow the thoughts come to your mind that you wont find that person in your life because, thats not true. If you want a man who is strong, determined, loving, sensitive, gentle, loyal, and with high morals.. well you wont get it if you dont expect those same standards out of yourself. I saved myself for my husband. and he did the same for me, and there is no better gift than that to give to the man or woman that loves you more than anything.. It is so special to be able to give that to the person that wants you in THEIR lives despite all your obvious flaws. There is no better way to do it.. Saving yourself for that person.. shows more respect for yourself and him than anything ever can or will. (in my opinion)
-We got a beautiful God made dog named Ziggy. We found her at the pound. she is a tiny strawberry blonde chih terrier mix. when we found her she was the only dog not barking and she was sitting in her cage shaking. when we opened her kennel and let her out, she wouldnt come out, she just shook there. Imagine this please... you walk into a cold room, where the walls are made of cinder-blocks, the ground is bare concrete, there are 6 rows of tall wired cages. and in each row there are 6 or so cages. and in each cage there are maybe one or two dogs, scared, barking, crying! for help. And when you walk past them, they  start to wag their tail, just hoping you will save them from this hell some irresponsible person put them in. On average.. in EVERY kill-shelter 100 dogs are euthanized a week.. a WEEK! And most of them havent lived longer than 4 years.. the youngest one i saw in there was 3 months old... This is whats wrong here.. people who are uneducated about the situation.. breed their so called "pet" now... let me try to educate you. (WARNING.. i am very passionate about this, stop reading if you cant handle it) .. Keep this in mind.. a dog that is 1 year old is in human years 7 years old... so let me make an analogy..  how would a breeder feel about this.. take a 7 or 8 year old little innocent girl put her in a room with any aged male and have them mate... let the girl carry this baby for 9 months... then once she goes through the pain of birthing the child take it from her and sell it to some random person who will give you the most money... then take that same girl.. and pick some other male and do it again and again, until that girl dies or has too many health problems that she cant reproduce anymore... thats what uneducated breeders do with innocent puppies.. they get their "pet" pregnant with multiple children.. then allow the mom to take care of them then steal them from her to sell to RANDOM people they dont even know.. (how does this relate to pounds you ask? well let me tell you.) a breeder doesnt know who they are selling these living breathing beings to... most dogs end up in jail (the pound) because people dont know how to take care of another living thing... or they buy a puppy from a breeder.. and dont realize that the puppy wont be a cute small baby breathed animal forever and when the puppy turns into a dog, they bail on it, they put it to its death sentence.. and then that unloyal individual goes and gets another puppy.. a different kind of course.. maybe a smaller breed.. and the cycle continues. the dog is bigger than they thought, bail. then they decide to try a toy sized breed. (If you want a toy.. go get a BARBIE!) toy sized breeds are basically bred to be killed. toy breeds have so many health problems it is insane! im not even going to go into it.. their quality of life dwindles fast.. so moral of the story.. if you want a pet. spay or neuter it. treat is how it should be treated, dont use it as an object and an easy way out for you to get some easy cash. and if you want easy cash and you want to sell a living being.. go to the street corner and do it yourself. (i gave you a warning, i am passionate about this.. and im not going to hide my opinions anymore. lifes to short.)

- I have amazing friends who encourage me to be me... and then there are those kind of "friends" that need this song as their theme song... haha.


you got designer shades,
just to hide your face and
you wear them around like
you're cooler than me.
and you never say hey,
or remember my name.
its probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.
.
see I got you,
all figured out,
you need everyone's eyes just to feel seen.                                                                                                                  

-Enough said.

I hope you didnt see this post as angry because it wasnt. I wanted to let you all know that being passionate about something is a good thing. and no i dont go to every person and scream my arguments at them.. i give my opinion when asked.. but then all is fair game. I believe its called sticking up for what you believe.. and i believe thats what i do.. so i will continue to stick up for what i believe. be passionate, be nice, and be passionate about being nice... hahaha.. make the world a better and safer place.

Peace.

Farm land.. and adventures.

So here we are once again.. ha.. do i have an ordeal to tell you about! i swear when anything  happens to me i think.. i need to write that on my blog. i think this is the fun way to get me to journal.. but calling it a journal makes it seem boring to me.. its not quite a diary, cause if it were i wouldnt be putting it out for the world to see. anyways, to me a journal is a "must do" for your future children to learn about your life (but really i'd rather read someones diary with personal secrets than a journal talking about how much corn they picked and how they canned it and sweetened it with dirt or whatever. Dont get me wrong journals are great! i just like the juiciness of diaries.) but blogs.. no blogs you see give people an excuse to ramble.. and give OTHER people another thing to do to be involved in someone elses life. Thats ok with me! if you write it on the internet.. expect people you dont know to read it.. right? thats what we've always been told about the internet. Its pretty interesting to see the train of thought here.. im not talking about anything i wanted to talk/type about..

let me paint a picture for you.. you drive past a few dirt roads, with random trailer houses or BIG farms, then you see sign for ritewood oakdell farms.. which is the woodward farm, dont ask me where ritewood and oakdell came from when grandpa woodward was the one who started out the farm, i dont entirely remember the story. but anyways! you see signs for the farm, if you dont follow the sign and go in a different way you'll bump into the dairy farm! and then you'll see tons and tons of horses.. ok so heres the story... last night i couldnt fall asleep.. i kept Mike up by tickling him and before that i kept blowing his scriptures shut as we were reading our night scriptures haha just envisioning his face makes me wanna chuckle.  (i stuck my finger in his ear just now and his hand came attacking me hahaha he was sleepin.. then he moved away from me and stuck his tongue out) anyways.. i could fall asleep i kept thinking bugs were crawling all over me...

because there are bugs EVERYWHERE.. you kill em all day and millions keep appearing. mainly flies and box elder bugs. so i finally fell asleep.. mike woke up at 5:19 once he left i couldnt fall back asleep.. ( i usually wake up at 10) but noo.. laying in my bed for an hour didnt help at all.. i got up.. put  a load in the wash, went and ate breakfast, watched 24, took a shower, cleaned the room.. tried to sleep.. didnt work, went and check on laundry, not done, made the bed, then ruined the covers and laid in it, looked up stuff about mikes soon to be career, got excited to see that there are jobs in minnesota for his profession. finally fell asleep  at 10, mike came from break and woke me up at 1020, couldnt fall back asleep, drove to utah 30 mins away to joann fabrics.. took me an hour to find it. 10-15 flies were magically in our car.... uhh? i swear theyre stalker nasty flies.. i use to not be grossed out by them until someone told me they poo every other 5 seconds or something like that. so going 65 i had both windows rolled down to get them out.. when i thought they were all gone.. i rolled up the window.. and more kept appearing and appearing and id roll the window down.. they drove me nuts!i got my fabric.. most adorable fabric...1)to cover a long pillow thats ugly red green and blue 2)fabric to finish my sisters year old bday gift 3) the most beautiful fabric that im covering one of our living room chairs with.. ill show you later. came home tried really hard to keep more flies out of the car.. didnt work, i wasnt fast enough :( i hope they die of heat stroke or something. went in.. started sewing, the sewing machine didnt like my thick fabric, and i couldnt get the needle out to switch it. i then put all of that away.. and started painting our end tables red. :D that was fun while watching sherlock holmes.. also everytime i need money i take mikes wallet.. i have no access to money.. my cards and new license are in minnesota.. but i cant get em cause i dont have an address to have them sent to!! ugh anyways.. im out. my wrist really hurts. p.s. im so happy..i thought you might wanna know

God gave us agency, use it. We have the Agency to be happy, depression is real, but the beginning of depression is a choice, acknowledge it and choose to be happy. You are the one who is in charge of your life and which path you will take, be determined to take the right one, no matter how difficult. determinism always works, men wanted to go to the moon, they did. Faith always works, Jesus Christ healed men because of their faith. Determinism and Faith will allow you to be physically, or emotionally healed. Man walked on the moon, but that man had faith that the ship would blast off in the right direction. (i babbled but it makes sense to me)

long time

so im married now its amazing. its work, only a true daydreamer is someone who thinks marriage is all flowers and candy.. haha but even with too much candy you get fat and hmm maybe with too many flowers you attract bees.. so there are always things to work through, monitor your candy usage, like you monitor your spiteful words, also! dont squash the bees that just gets em more mad, and surely brings the bee furry on at full force, so be patient and find the bee's nest first, dispose of, then kill stragglers. (object lesson: get to the root of the problem, communicate, never poke and prod until either one of you is at your wits end, be patient and communicate! p.s. dont expect someone to agree with you all the time.. its ok to disagree with out having disagreements)



 do you ever wonder if people think if i get 100 people to follow my blog ill be famous? im sure there are many people who want that to happen. anyways. I got married 39 days ago, my husband and i decided that we are going to stay newlyweds forever.. newlyweds always seem in love.. and thats the way we want it. haha i just thought of something funny! Mike was almost sleeping and i said "I need to fart" he says "me too" (im laying on his rump) so i farted and let me tell ya my gasyness is so stinkin loud! it didnt smell it was just loud, then i say did you fart yet? and he said i dont wanna fart on you, so i move a bit.. and look at him and he has this i can do it i can do it look on his face and finally pushes out this put put. hehe even his farts are cute and funny just like him! i hope he sees the humor in this and doesnt get mad at me for putting it up on here.



well heres the DL (down low) we got married march 6th, we went to florida for 10 days, we stayed in MN for 2 weeks after that, finally came out here to the west, we were suppose to be able to move in to our apartment in the first week of april then we got a call and were told it wouldnt happen until april 20th so last week we stayed with Mikes uncle. Now this week we are at grandma woodwards for the week, ok ok let me map it out... (before wedding) we were in idaho... drove to minnesota, stayed there for two weeks... got married... (after wedding) flew to Florida.. Flew back to MN...stayed 2 weeks... Drove back to idaho, dropped of a trailer full of things in rexburg, then drove to Utah (4 more hours) stayed there for a week... then drove back to idaho staying with grandma in her guest house.. 2 hours away from our soon to be apartment... so this weekend we will drive BACK to utah for a sealing, and after the sealing we'll drive BACK to idaho and finally move in... the VERY day i start classes :D the end.

valentines day.

Mike made the best valentines day happen. When he would tell his roommate he was making dinner for me theyd say thats it? well him making me dinner sounds just perfect for me! whats better than your guy making you dinner?! Mike made me Cherry glazed pork tenderloin (amazing!!) mashed potatoes with the skins (super yum!) and asparagus! he bought my favorite chocolates which are rocher ferrero. He bought blue cups, bowls and plates, grabbed my quilt. and picked me up at 540 on sunday and drove me to one of the school buildings, and said we had one stop to make then we'd go to dinner, and i was like hmm ok.. this was when i finally figured i just have issues not knowing anything.. ok fine i know i know. i knew we were eating but i knew nothing else.. well he brings me to the elevator and i was super confused and he presses the button and BAMM theres a little picnic in the elevator :D best date ever!

I have been neglecting to blog.. i have really been wanting to for a long time, i found out in class today that you can go and google yourself and go to http://www.ask.com/ and find all sorts of information you want, if you post a picture on facebook and then later delete it, it doesnt matter if you deleted it.. its still on the web, so no matter what you do to try and get rid of it, it will forever be on the web.. i was in prep for eternal marriage and my teacher and his wife shared this video with us..     look at it.. watch it.. and pray about it.. i dont believe half of it.. but maybe me not being a believer it proving this video right.. we'll see  i guess.. love you all.. wish i had more time! stupid mac.. time for marriage prep.. im getting married in 24 days.. and i am SO ready. some ppl say it is one of the scariest things out there to do, and the world thinks that when you get married life is over.. well WORLD YOU FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME HAS GOT IT 100% WRONG! when you get married life has just begun.. and it is amazing! when you know ho wto work hard and remember why you loved that person in the first place.. there is nothing else better... i have a few pyramids i want to show you.. but i will show you in a few minutes! love ya.

Hmm..

So I decided that my curves are SEXY! blunt i know, but hey how else am i suppose to say it. Ive spent my whole life thinking and worrying about my rumps and rolls... but my Fiance loves me for them and i love me with them.. why sit ans waste time complaining about something when you can do something about it.. option 1: work out Option 2: find the beauty in what you have and show it :) i chose the 2nd one and occasionally the 1st one.

I am officially making 3 different guest lists to different things.. this stuff can be crazy! i even bought a planner... i dont hang out with planners. our relationship is very one way.

so Katie, Megan and Alyssa alll got their dresses, in that order actually. (i have the best maid of honor ever!)

AW I JUST REALIZED HOW CLOSE MY WEDDING IS! AND I ALSO REALIZED HOW STINKING CLOSE ME NEEDING TO MOVE OUT IS!! aw i gotta get working ttyl ill do this later :( dangit and i wanted to become a blog-aholic!) this wedding i dont think will allow me to do that!

Education Technology

Im in my education technology class, typing on a mac, (which might I add hates me) the keyboard is sticking and my fingers are like human popsicles! I just learned about real email etiquette! do not use smiley faces..none of these :) so i figure you can use sad faces? :( those work. I've been wondering why do hand sanitizers say kills 99 percent of germs without water, maybe if you add water it'll kill 100 percent of germs?how do you test whether or not the germs are killed? oh nevermind lets not go there, i envision someone actually giving me a scientific explaination, which is something )ill be honest) im not interested in knowing :) Less is more right? so the less i know, the more i know :D haha. Thats a true twist on the saying eh?

I would like to share with everyone that i have been having crazy dreams! One time i had a dream that i was pushing my best friends dead body on a gurny around my neighborhood... and someone wanted to buy his shoes.. so i sold them to him but tried them on before i sold them. The weirder thing is that after his body was taken from me, i carrried around his pillow, then i pumped into my aunt who turned into a goat.. weird huh

What just happend!-- Im sitting next to this guy named K Buttars, Hes texting his GF.. who isnt his GF yet but theyre very serious..Just looking at him can make me laugh. The second day of class, he made me laugh so hard that i snorted in class, and everyone stopped and laughed, even the teacher did. That was when i found out my friend Claire is in my class too! These two people are most likely the funniest people ive met in classes before. HAHA Buttars told me to take one of the required classes from thompson,
Me: so whats his name?
Buttars: Thompson, He's OLD!, he might not be alive when you need to take the class, hes been around a long time, my dad may have had him, and my dads 60.
Camille: told me to take it from lindheart.

Ok class is over. im out. :( (its oppsosite day!)